May 2013
17 posts
YOU NOW WHAT MAKES ME ANGRY
SOMETIMES I TRY REALLY HARD TO LOOK NICE LIKE I WAKE UP AND GET MOTIVATED AND PUT ON NICE CLOTHES AND BRACELETS AND SHOES AND I FEEL GOOD
AND THEN SOME CHICK WEARING SWEATS AND A MESSY BUN STILL LOOKS 40 TIMES HOTTER THAN ME I CANT WIN
n-ervosas:
i need to lose forty pounds by yesterday
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I am weak
i miss him. His love and his lips. He is my love, my light. Idk what to do
April 2013
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No more dreads
I took my dreads out because i lost all of my stregth i am weak
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Drugs
Can any drug numb out this pain my lover has filled me with? Can any drug erase these nightmares of abuse. Is there something that can save me?
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Everyone needs someone sometime, so where are you? Your suppost to love me not cause my pain. Maybe I finally learned my lesson i’m tired of holding this pain it. I’ma let go.
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When you have nothing left to lose.
I already lost my heart.
The one I love already abuses me.
I have no dreams left.
I have no hope.
I have nobody.
I’m going to runaway someplace you’ll never find me.
Goodbye to this me.
I’ll find something.
I’ll find somebody.
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Abuser
Dear Abuser,
I already know this won’t be the last time. If I was smart i’d run far away from you and abandon your “love”. The new black eye that’s swelling up as we speak isn’t something i’m proud of. You swear you love me so what did I do to deserve this? But let’s be honest, i’m nothing without you and we both know it. I have no one but...
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Pills
Tiny lil thrills
Fill my mind up with chills
I love these pills.
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Daisy
Oh dear where is my mind running to now??
Clean for so long it burns.
I need freedom.
I feel no love.
I need no one.
October 2012
63 posts
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Dear Zachary
I am sorry we lost us.
I’m sorry I lost it.
I’m sorry you don’t wanna touch me anymore, I guess I understand completely.
Who wants the same pussy after 8 months? Who would ever want me?
I’m so fucking far from pretty I musta gotten beat with the ugly stick when I was born. Im 10lbs skinny then I was in Feb. now you say you don’t like my boobs there to small....
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He stopped
He stopped wanting me,
8 months ago was heaven.
So much lust,
misguided emotions thrown away in sex
Drowning in goodiness
I miss his touch
I miss his lust.
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size 3
Size 3= fat
size 0 = still not there
-1+ daisy= where i wanna be
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Where'd the lust go?
I’m shrinking,tryin be perfect, tryin to be good enough.
I’ll be skinny for him, i’ll be thin for him.
I want his touch back, his lust back.
Maybe it’s my ugliness, maybe it’s my fatness.
Someday i’ll get it back.
All I want is to be wanted.
All I want is to be beautiful, sexy, pretty, thin.
I’m in this to win it, I will NOT fail.
My goal is...
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Fuck it.
I will be SKINNY
Fuck 117lbs
Fuck this unhappiness
Fuck being fat
Fuck being gross
I just want to be wanted
I’ll do whatever it takes to get what we had back
I’ll be perfect for him
I’ll be skinny for him
I’ll be pretty for him
I’ll be thin for him
My bones will show
My body will shrink
My fat will die
I’ll kill it.
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Snitch ass hoes
So lemme state this clearly:
Snitches are jus as bad as the people they be snitchin on.
We all got something to worry about, we all got people watchin.
Pick your battles hunny, smartly.
Tryin to snitch because you saltly we aint friends?
Bitch fuck snitches, didnt i tell you that?
Nothing sicker then a snitch ass hoe.
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To many lies
Snitches and lying ass hoes
You won’t bring us down
Not now
Not ever.
The world works in funny ways, I warn you the world never stops turning
Were on top just where will always be.
Love is all we need.
He’ll save me and i’ll save him, who do you have there?
...
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I like how i can be myself around him, all srubbed out, dreads a mess and big fuzzy pajama pants on and all. He’s so sexy i’m such a mess. I’m so blessed, so lucky, so happy, so loved.
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Home?
My lover moved in. 8months later and here we are.
My dad really likes him, at least enough to move him into our home and right a crossed the hall from me.
I love staying up all night cuddle with him. I love waking up and getting to walk 5 feet away and getting to lay in his arms.
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Scribbles: Domestic Violence →
nikkescribbles:
I got flowers today. It wasn’t my birthday or any other special day. We had our first argument last night, And he said a lot of cruel things that really hurt me. I know he is sorry and didn’t mean the things he said. Because he sent me flowers today.
I got flowers today. It wasn’t our…
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Jus another blow..
Abuse
Like i’v been told once i starts it never stops, it only gets worse
I tired to forget and forgive him
Now pregnant and bruised up i can’t escape the nightmare.
Throw me down
Use me
Lose me
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One lil test strip.
Why are we so fucking stupid? How can a lil blue plus come? Why didnt we learn from our mistakes? Condemns, birth control, fucking something.
It’s like damn I thought he loved me but here I am in tears waiting on the results to fade away so I can pretend everything’s gonna be okay.
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Today he said,
“Daisy your getting to small, your border line sickly skinny.”
In my head all I could think was, ” Zachary, i’ll be to small when i’m dead.”
Border line sickly, all I want is to be skinny. Skin and bones.
I want to be beautiful.
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I will be thin. I must be skinny. I must lose...
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114lbs today :)
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break me: if you ever found out.. →
s-kk-in-n-y-love:
I wonder what you’d say if you ever found out about this, if you knew that i was faking that happiness.. would you judge me? would you hate me? would you think that I’m a hypocrite?… would you even give a shit or would you say that its what i deserve?
and you, you don’t even know me yet, not…
